I listen to a lot of music. I have about an hour total in the car each day just going to and from work so that is ample time to jam(or listen to an audio book, which right now by the way is Anna Karenina) plus I usually keep listening to whatever I had on in the car when I get home in the evenings.
Continuing what I did in my first post, I'm going to share some song lyrics that have really hit home with me lately. I think Taylor Swift might have known about my divorce before I did, because the timing of her latest album could not have been more fitting.
"A Little Bit Stronger" -Sara Evans
"Woke up late today, and I still feel the sting of the pain.
But I brushed my teeth anyway,
But I brushed my teeth anyway,
I got dressed through the mess and put a smile on my face.
I got a little bit stronger.
Riding in the car to work, and I'm tryin' to ignore the hurt.
So I turned on the radio, stupid song made me think of you,
I listened to it for minute, and then I changed it.
I'm gettin' a little bit stronger, just a little bit stronger.
I got a little bit stronger.
Riding in the car to work, and I'm tryin' to ignore the hurt.
So I turned on the radio, stupid song made me think of you,
I listened to it for minute, and then I changed it.
I'm gettin' a little bit stronger, just a little bit stronger.
(It's ridiculous how true to my life this is. There is SO much music that reminds me of Seth.)
I'm done hoping that we can work it out,
I'm done with how it feels, spinning my wheels
Letting you drag my heart around.
I'm done hoping that we can work it out,
I'm done with how it feels, spinning my wheels
Letting you drag my heart around.
I'm done thinking, that you could ever change.
I know my heart will never be the same,
but I'm telling myself I'll be okay.
Even on my weakest days, I get a little bit stronger.
Doesn't happen over night, but you turn around and a month's gone by,
And you realize you haven't cried.
I'm not giving you a hour or a second or another minute longer.
I'm busy getting stronger.
I know my heart will never be the same,
but I'm telling myself I'll be okay.
Even on my weakest days, I get a little bit stronger.
Doesn't happen over night, but you turn around and a month's gone by,
And you realize you haven't cried.
I'm not giving you a hour or a second or another minute longer.
I'm busy getting stronger.
Getting along without you baby,
I'm better off without you baby,
How does it feel with out me baby?
I'm getting stronger without you baby."
I'm better off without you baby,
How does it feel with out me baby?
I'm getting stronger without you baby."
"The Garden" by Mirah
"You don't want me anymore, how can it be?
look what you've done to me."
"Titanium" -David Guetta
"Shoot me down, but I won't fall, I am titanium.
Cut me down, but it's you who'll have further to fall.
I'm bulletproof, nothing to lose.
fire away, fire away."
"Pressing On" -Relient K
Pressing on pressing on,
all my distress is going going gone.
all my distress is going going gone.
There's only one thing left do,
drop all I have and go with you.
drop all I have and go with you.
To go back to where I was would just be wrong,
I'm pressing on.
"I Almost Do" -Taylor Swift
"I bet this time of night you're still up
I bet you're tired from a long hard week
and I bet sometimes you wonder about me
I just want to tell you
It takes everything in me not to call you
And I wish I could run to you.
and I hope you know that every time I don't, I almost do.
It takes everything in me not to call you
And I wish I could run to you.
and I hope you know that every time I don't, I almost do.
It's probably better off this way
And I confess, babe
In my dreams you're touching my face
and asking me if I wanna try again with you
and I almost do."
"Red" -Taylor Swift
"Ended so suddenly.
Loving him is like trying to change your mind
Loving him is like trying to change your mind
once you're already flying through the free fall
Like the colors in autumn,
so bright just before they lose it all
Losing him is blue like I'd never known,
Missing him is dark grey all alone.
Forgetting him is like trying to
know somebody you never met
But loving him was red
Touching him was like realizing all you ever wanted was right there in front of you.
Memorizing him was as easy as knowing all the
words to your old favorite song.
Fighting with him was like trying to solve a crossword and realizing there's no right answer.
Regretting him was like wishing you never found out that love could be that strong.
Remembering him comes in flashbacks and echoes,
tell myself it's time now, gotta let go.
But moving on from him is impossible
when I still see it all in my head,
burning red."
Like the colors in autumn,
so bright just before they lose it all
Losing him is blue like I'd never known,
Missing him is dark grey all alone.
Forgetting him is like trying to
know somebody you never met
But loving him was red
Touching him was like realizing all you ever wanted was right there in front of you.
Memorizing him was as easy as knowing all the
words to your old favorite song.
Fighting with him was like trying to solve a crossword and realizing there's no right answer.
Regretting him was like wishing you never found out that love could be that strong.
Remembering him comes in flashbacks and echoes,
tell myself it's time now, gotta let go.
But moving on from him is impossible
when I still see it all in my head,
burning red."
"All Too Well" -Taylor Swift
"Oh, your sweet disposition and my wide-eyed gaze
we're singing in the car getting lost upstate.
Autumn leaves falling down like pieces into place
and I can picture it after all these days.
I know it's long gone
and that magic's not here no more
and I might be okay
but I'm not fine at all
'Cause there we are again on
that little town street
You almost ran the red 'cause
you were looking over me
wind in my hair, I was there,
I remember it all too well.
You tell me about your past,
thinking your future was me
And I know it's long gone
And there's nothing else I could do
And I forget about you long enough
To forget why I needed to
There we are again, in the middle of the night
dancing around the kitchen in the refrigerator light
Down the stairs, I was there,
I remember it all too well
Maybe we got lost in translation,
maybe I asked for too much
But maybe this thing was a masterpiece
'til you tore it all up
Running scared, I was there,
I remember it all too well
Down the stairs, I was there,
I remember it all too well
Maybe we got lost in translation,
maybe I asked for too much
But maybe this thing was a masterpiece
'til you tore it all up
Running scared, I was there,
I remember it all too well
You call me up again just to break me like a promise
So casually cruel in the name of being honest
I'm a crumpled up piece of paper lying here
'Cause I remember it all all all too well
Time won't fly, it's like I'm paralyzed by it
I'd like to be my old self again,
but I'm still trying to find it
After plaid shirt days and nights
when you made me your own
Now you mail back my things
and I walk home alone
'Cause there we are again,
when I loved you so
Back before you lost the
one real thing you've ever known
It was rare, I was there,
I remember it all too well
Wind in my hair, you were there, you remember it all
Down the stairs, you were there, you remember it all
It was rare, I was there, I remember it all too well."
So casually cruel in the name of being honest
I'm a crumpled up piece of paper lying here
'Cause I remember it all all all too well
Time won't fly, it's like I'm paralyzed by it
I'd like to be my old self again,
but I'm still trying to find it
After plaid shirt days and nights
when you made me your own
Now you mail back my things
and I walk home alone
'Cause there we are again,
when I loved you so
Back before you lost the
one real thing you've ever known
It was rare, I was there,
I remember it all too well
Wind in my hair, you were there, you remember it all
Down the stairs, you were there, you remember it all
It was rare, I was there, I remember it all too well."
And now for an oldie. This song used to come on the radio station my family listened to as far back as I can remember. Now it's on my iPod :)
"Beauty for Ashes" -Crystal Lewis
"He gives beauty for ashes
Strength for fear
Gladness for mourning
Peace for despair
When sorrow seems to surround you
When suffering hangs heavy on your head
Know that tomorrow brings
Wholeness and healing
God knows your need
Just believe what He said
When what you've done
keeps you from moving on
When fear wants to make
itself at home in your heart
Know that forgiveness brings
Wholeness and healing
God knows your need
Just believe what He said
I once was lost but God has found me
Though I was bound I've been set free
I've been made righteous in His sight
A display of His splendor all can see
He gives beauty for ashes
Strength for fear
Strength for fear
Gladness for mourning
Peace for despair
When sorrow seems to surround you
When suffering hangs heavy on your head
Know that tomorrow brings
Wholeness and healing
God knows your need
Just believe what He said
When what you've done
keeps you from moving on
When fear wants to make
itself at home in your heart
Know that forgiveness brings
Wholeness and healing
God knows your need
Just believe what He said
I once was lost but God has found me
Though I was bound I've been set free
I've been made righteous in His sight
A display of His splendor all can see
He gives beauty for ashes
Strength for fear
Gladness for mourning
Peace for despair"
Peace for despair"
I'll leave it on this note tonight:
"But He said to me, 'My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.' Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me." -2 Corinthians 12:9
**BONUS! a picture of my aforementioned kitten and christmas tree :)
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